Antonio Cayonne | Actor

Smile - Tues. April 7. 2015

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Back at it. I got a call for 2 auditions tomorrow! Good vibes indeed. It's starting - starting - to set in  that this is my reality. I'm here. I may be here for a while - longer even than I had planned. Maybe. Maybe not. But while I'm here, I really do need to make the most. I'm already making the most by being here. It's a big thing. But if you know me, you know that it's not enough. Not for me. I want to make something of it. I want to work on me while I put myself in a place to achieve my goals. Part of that is reactivating the artist within. Part is accessing beast mode work ethic which I definitely left on the plane or something. Part of it is re-centering and finding my daily meditative practice. But mostly, it's just wanting to be here, and be me in a new place, and smile through it. When Cath was here, I smiled SO much. I think I forgot that I smile a lot. And laugh. And play. Without her here, I've been smiling less. She makes me smile, so that's fair. But the world is smile worthy, life is smile worthy, and I just need to keep looking up in wonder, and smiling. Someone once told me that smiling makes you happy, so you don't have to wait to be happy in order to smile. I'm not unhappy, per se, but I'm not smiling enough. Yet as I sit here, I'm ear to ear. Because I do know why I'm here, even if it's hard to accept. I moved my body here in Feb. I need to move my spirit, mind, and soul here now. I'm here. Let's have fun. 2 auditions tomorrow. That's a great day right there.